A Flower Quickly Fading

So I'm sitting at my computer, waiting for my professor to email be back, and I figured I should stop stalking people on facebook and do something...ergo this post. I'm sitting here, listening to Eminem (if you don't already know this about me, rap music is kind of my guilty pleasure during bad times...something about it just makes me feel better) and I'm contemplating life. The other day, I was sitting at the beach writing my name in the sand, and the waves came and washed it away. I know that's just something that happens, but it got me thinking; that's how our lives are. We appear for a brief moment in eternity and we're gone. Amazing, isn't it? We feel as though our minutes, hours, days, months last forever, but before we know it, they're gone. I just went to the SBS Class of 2010 graduation and first of all, I can't believe they're graduating, I feel like just yesterday we were all running around making fun of each other, but most of all, I feel like I was just on that stage graduating myself. I spent most of this year at school counting down days til the weekend, or til the next time I was coming home, or til the next break. But before I knew it, I was packing up my car and driving home, a sophomore in college. The fact that I made it through freshman year in one piece is amazing in itself, but that is beside the point.

Where in the world does time go?

To quote Kenny Chesney (I know, so philosophical), "man I don't know where the time goes, but it sure goes fast." That is so so true. I can't believe I'm already halfway through June of my summer, and I'm about to be in my second year of college. I'm definitely looking forward to the future, but I know these are the best days of my life and I'm probably not soaking them up as much as I should be. This leads me to the point of this post...

Are we making our lives count?

I know everyone looks forward to marriage, and children, and the future, but every moment of life is important. God specially designed us to live for Him ALWAYS, not in the future. Are we avoiding things today because we're putting them off, saying we will get to them in a few years? I know I'm definitely guilty of that. Like I said earlier, it seems like the days go by so slow, but before you know it, it is the future, and you're still not doing anything. Make your life count. Don't wait for "The One" or wait to have children to make an impression on the world. Do it now. You don't want to reach the end of your life and realize you never did anything you wanted. Make a list of things you want to do, even trivial things (like skydiving...I so want to go skydiving), and start checking things off. I have always lived by the motto "No Regrets" and I want that to remain true for the rest of my life. I'm hoping I can actually take my own advice on this one because I want to live my life to the fullest, I want to be the person God created me to be, I don't want to wait to start living my life. Society has trained us to waste time...facebook, myspace, texting, TV (don't get me wrong I do it too, did you read the opener of this post?) and I think we believe that eventually something will happen to make us snap back to reality, but that's not necessarily true.

Who knows, maybe it's the cold medicine talking, but still... :)

“The time for action is now. The day for becoming the person God has called you to be is today. This is your moment. This is your hour. You’re the hero of your epic adventure, and all the characters in your story are watching. God is ready to charge with you against the forces of the villain and he’s patiently waiting for your signal. But he won’t force you. You see, one of the great mysteries of heaven is how God allows us to make our own decisions about when and to what degree we allow Him to take the reins of our life. God has the armies of heaven assembled to back you up as your charge the hill of your greatest vision…but you have to be the one to give the war cry.” – John Bolin

♥

They called them crazy when they started out,
Said seventeen's too young to know what love's about.
They've been together fifty-eight years now...that’s crazy.

He brought home sixty-seven bucks a week,
He bought a little 2 bedroom house on Maple Street,
Where she blessed him with six more mouths to feed...yea that’s crazy.

Just ask him how he did it; he'll say

"Pull up a seat. It'll only take a minute, to tell you everything.
Be a best friend, tell the truth, and overuse I love you,
Go to work, do your best, don't outsmart your common sense,
Never let your prayin' knees get lazy, and love like crazy."

They called him crazy when he quit his job,

Said them home computers, boy they'll never take off.
He sold his one man shop to Microsoft, & they paid like crazy.

Just ask him how he made it, he'll tell you faith and sweat,
And the heart of a faithful woman,
Who never let him forget...

Be a best friend, tell the truth, and overuse I love you,
Go to work, do your best, don't outsmart your common sense,
Never let your prayin' knees get lazy, and love like crazy.

Always treat your woman like a lady,
Never get to old to call her baby,
Never let your prayin' knees get lazy,
And love like crazy.

They called him crazy when they started out,
They've been together fifty-eight years now,
Aint that crazy?

Love Like Crazy

Okay, so when I said I would update this regularly, I was clearly kidding. Oh well, I guess some things just won't change. There are a few things that I've been wanting to vent about for quite some time. I felt like tonight was the perfect night to address these incredibly important things, seeing as I have a final tomorrow that I still have to do 50 pages of reading for. But like my mom says, sometimes you've gotta live a little. All nighter, here I come...

So first of all, I've been getting the question "What do you look for in a guy?" so frequently lately, I figured I should sit down and think about it. And world history wasn't working out for me tonight, so I've been making a little list in my mind. The most important thing, of course, is that he's a solid person and a solid Christian, not the kind that just goes to church on Sunday and calls it a week, the kind that will encourage me, teach me, and lead me. He needs to have an adoring and solid relationship with Jesus Christ before he's ready to be with me. At least that's my opinion. Second, he needs to be a guy that will come to all my family events with me and enjoy it. My family is the most important thing in my life, besides the obvious, and it's so crucial to have somebody that can fit in. I'm talking Caleigh's dance recitals, Sunday Night Pizza, the millions of birthday parties, the holiday festivities, the list could go on and on. He needs to be someone my grandma can adore just as much as me, sorry if that's lame, but that's just how it goes. Third, I need to fit into his life. I want to feel like I belong and I don't want things hidden from me. I've dealt with that enough already. Fourth, I want somebody that will be okay sitting at home sometimes and just watching a movie. I'll even let it be some awful guy movie. The simple things are the most important things. I'm tired of counting, so I'll just continue...I want somebody that won't judge me when I eat an entire pint of Ben and Jerry's in less than 15 minutes. I want somebody that notices little things. I want someone that I'm attracted to, in more than one way. I want someone who will never get tired of me. Okay, sorry this list is long and I probably sound really annoying and girly and selfish, but people keep asking so I figured I'd give everyone an answer.

The second of all has strange relation to the first of all. People continually ask me, "Oh my gosh, like how are you still single?" Okay seriously, how am I supposed to answer that question? Not only is it kind of rude, but it's just so awkward. Even if the person is trying to be nice, it's just not the best idea. I'm single because that's how it's supposed to be right now. I'm single because I'm too picky. I'm single because God hasn't shown me the right person yet. I'm single because I don't know myself well enough to know somebody else. I'm single because I'm looking for 2 years, not 2 weeks. I'm single because I won't give it up. I'm single because I'm not the perfect 10. Is that what people really want to hear? That would probably make things even more awkward. But anyway, I'll just deal with the question until I meet someone. Then I'll deal with all the pesky questions that come with a relationship. Can't ever win. :)

That's the end of my random, annoying, scatterbrained rant. :)